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Anyone miss the way 90's music made you feel? im listening to soundgarden drunk and have this strange bundle of emotion but its undefineable. If i died and had a flash back of my life, it wouldnt be of images containing my grandma or my GF or any of that amrican beauty shit, it would be represented by the music I heard durring periods of my life. Im not sure if im the only person to have this, but when I hear something, its like i can smell, feel, and become the time period of when I heard that peice of music. So yea, maybe thats why i miss 90's rock, after all i listened to it when the highest concern I had was what I was gonna spend my allowance on, or what ever the fuck candy tasted the best, not "how am i gonna pay the bills?!" or "man I hope my GF doesnt smash my heart into the ground." or " I wonder what I should study so I can support my self for the rest of my life or i'll be a peice of shit bum..." yea I just went to school, played with toys, and was happy. basicly what I think im trying to say is Soundgarden rocks.

I R DRUNK.
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Okay so, even though I feel a little better, I still feel fucked up. Im going to the health department tomarrow to get a diagnosis, since my doctor sucks and hasnt given me a real one. Not one blood test WTF?!?! This shit would never have gone on with my old doc, who decided to retire and fucking ruin my life. I want blood tests and I want to know what I have. Other wise, Im gonna limp in wednesday and all of you will be exposed to ME! heres a nifty list of what ive had since last sunday. Spots(red and itchy), mouth sores, cold sores, a week long fever, diahrea, bleeding from the mouth, Swollen glands (still swollen btw) and a big nast sore throat that hurt so bad I couldn't even drink water for a day. Im sure you guys dont want me around untill you know wtf I have :D

Okay good news. I can feel my self starting to get better. Im not anywhere close to 100% yet, but this is the first time in a week that I can feel progress. Im thankfull to god. I think its the fact that I just slept for 24 hours. That always helps a little. whats nice is my sis came into town to help my mom and I out, who is sick also btw and has been for like a month. This house has been a den of pestilence long enough. I must recover.

Im now covered in itchy red spots... its either an alergic reaction to the shot I was given yesterday, or Im supper fucked sick. This is one of the worst breaks ever...physicaly. I also have this strange sore inflamation on my gums that hurts like hell so bad that I can't brush my teeth, and If i do cowboy up and brush anyway I have to spit and reapply toothpast cause my mouth fills up with blood. The sores in the back of my throat are starting to heal, so atleast theres that. Its thursday now, and I've had a temperature over 100 since sunday. If i picked it up from any regular im going to fucking poison their coffee, im not joking. This is one of the worst sicknesses ever, EVER. I tried to play video games yesterday, and I got dizzy and had to stop cause I felt like I was gonna pass out. I told Heather that I would most likly be back on saturday, But i don't know if thats gonna happen. I have this cold sore now on my lip that dries up and hurts over night, so I wake up every three or four hours then apply lip balm and go back to bed. Something needs to quell this shit asap. end.

So... heres my intersting night. First work was boring, yea... then I get spam called about abunch of parties to go to after work, I feel like shit cause I was supper smashed the night b4 but I decide I'll atleast go party hopping and not drink mostly cause the two girls I've been talking to wanted me to go visit them at their different parties, and both of them were working friday so I didnt get to take either of them out. I contact one and her phone dies while giving me directions, preventing me from meetin her once again, oh well too bad I guess. So I decide to go to the other party to see Paige. This party is a party from hell, its one of those house parties where ppl are fighting as you walk into the door (not a good sign) but theres Paige and I was happy to see her, when low and behold the cops bust the party and I have to sneek Paige and half my other underage friends out the back door. I get questioned by the cops, but Im 21 and sober so I get let go. I was going to grab Paige and have her stay at my place till we can go pick up her car in the mourning, but she took off with her frind megan b4 I could grab her in the huge cluster fuck of ppl running around out side. It was pretty lame. Then I call my brother/hedero-lifemate Nathan. He ofcourse Is fucked out of his mind drunk. He tells me to come to this other partty where my friends Catey, Aundrea, and Justin are at, so I'm like hey sure, the nigt must go on right? Well I get there and the neighbors make a noise complaint and bust the party, so I have to take Nathan's drunk ass home and Im left bored, alone, and not getting to spend time with the people I wanted to. Fuck... Lame ass night. Im gonna go cut my self and listen to bright eyes now. I hope tomarrow will be better. Im working with a good crew and then Im prolly gonna go to sleep. BTW sorry liz for me ditching out the other mourning. I don't like to call in sick and I fucked you over twice this week, I hope you dont hate me too much. Also thx Amber for calling me and seeing how Im feeling. It means alot to me, you rule! If you wern't married I would have your babies.

okay so I woke up cause im coughing like a stupid nigger face and I decided to check my LJ. i have a date firday with Paige WOOHOO!!! im not sure what to do with her but Im sure we will have fun either way. she is ex-scene i guess, the music snobbyness of it made her dislike the hxc scene kids and I dont blame her thats why in not scene either... music nazis suck. my head is gonna explode and im going to die so have fun kids!

im getting sick, that sux :( I went to the doctors today and i have a sinus infection and im coughing alot... yuck. party thursday YAY!!! I have a piss load of movies I want to see: Munic (spl?, hostile, Shop girl, and alot of others. If anyone wants to go with me its free. I want a new car. too tired to type anything else. ttyl.

today is gonna be an awkward day...

Okay so. whats been going on with me for the past few days... well I slept over the time I said I would go into work and help out, but that only fucked over Liz so im not too worried about it. I saw a few movies, wolfcreek = suck, The Machinist = good, and then I watched American Psycho again cause its just so damn funny. Tara is going away and that sucks cause I liked her and she doesnt even have a live journal for me to tell her how much she sucks for leaving and having goals, that damn bitch lol j/k but I will miss her. tomarrow night will kick ass im sure. I was going to go hop a few parties but due to the recent success of our last three parties (lots of sex, drugs, and rock n' roll) we are going to throw our own. ya... it will b fun. i think im getting sick. for those of you who want to work on my layout for this *cough* donna and liz *cough* Transformers would be great! Emery is comming to town I want to go see them. OMG!!!! ALIENS JUST BUSTED INTO MY ROOM WHILE IM UPDATING MY LIVEJOURNAL!!!!! OH FUCK! SOME ONE CALL HELP IM SO FUCKED OMG OMG AHHHHH!!!!!! *Zap* *zap* *pewpewpewpew* RAWWWWWWWWWRRRRR!!!! ughhhhh... ill miss you all... blarghasfgahhtarth...rtht....*the sound that is made when the bodys muscles relax from death releasing all the excrament still in my bowles*

so the visit to my sisters was pretty nice. i leave to go home in about 5 hours so I can go to work at 2, atleast I hope thats when i have to be in for work =O anyhoo, the way down to tulsa wasn't so fun cause i puked twice. not sure why but I think its cause I took my pain meds b4 eating. (I=stupid) but other than that it was tight fo sho neeegro! ya i look forward to seeing the starbux peeps and goofing around with friends 4 the rest of my break.

there, i made one you fuckers now im cool.